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sucks. i dont wanna go back, even if i am not doing anything at all
here...but i hate school and everything to do with it. dangit. oh well.
i go back tuesday.
if i saw you over break it was
amazing to see you, spend time with you, and talk to you. thanks for
making me happy...if i didnt see you, then there was probably a reason
for it...like, you're not my friend. haha.
anyways, casinos suck, especially ones with harelequin dealers.
good luck with everyones second semester, or enjoy the rest of your break.
i got a myspace, so i probably
wont use this anymore...except for random thoughts or pictures of my
art work...but no one really reads this anymore, so what does it matter.
http://www.myspace.com/theraytownloiteringclub
i could go for a good tequiza right now.
so here are my last sentiments....
I found this
picture randomly on my cell phone, and I do not know who took this or
who these belong to, so if this is your scrotum, please claim it,
because its not mine.
who's nuts are these???
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| Don't
you love just sitting there and listening to some of your favorite
music very intently and closely, and then you hear things you've never
heard before, like a few picking patterns you'd never noticed, an extra
harmony, or a new noise you just never noticed? i love it. I just wanna
close my eyes and melt away and never come back. I think I would never
complain if I could just get lost like that...
break is going well. i love not being at school. i've realized that
graceland pretty much represents everything i don't stand for and if
there's anything that is keeping me down in life...it's pretty much
graceland. so thats a little discouraging, but whatever. maybe i just
will graduate next year and move on. but break has been kicking ass.
nothing like drinking champagne and eatcing catfish for breakfast at 9
am at a casino, or drinking a screw driver at 8 am to fight your
insomnia, or just spending time with the friends you love the most in
the world, or finishing a good book with no distractions....
so here's my last design i did for my digital imaging class. it's supposed so illutrate a poem or song. i chose Acquainted with the Night by Robert Frost.
I have been one acquainted with the night.
I have walked out in rain -- and back in rain.
I have outwalked the furthest city light.
I have looked down the saddest city lane.
I have passed by the watchman on his beat
And dropped my eyes, unwilling to explain.
I have stood still and stopped the sound of feet
When far away an interrupted cry
Came over houses from another street,
But not to call me back or say good-bye;
And further still at an unearthly height,
O luminary clock against the sky
Proclaimed the time was neither wrong nor right.
I have been one acquainted with the night.
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| thank god im not at graceland anymore.
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| I think I'm still searching for answers and meaning where there is none..where there never was any, and never will be any.
this is by far one of the greatest songs I've ever had the privilege of listening to.
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| So...
i feel sorta guilty, or bad, or actually i dont, but I feel like I
should....but the truth is, I'm not happy really here anymore. I feel
bad, because I don't really have any reason not to be happy or to hate
graceland, but I'm just worn out and bored with it. But for that
matter, im not extremely happy sitting around at home either. I hate
classes, and as for Graceland, it just feels like it's all been done
before. Maybe this is my fault cause I lack the creativity and drive to
do anything new. I kinda wanna just disappear and make some art work
again. But I dont even feel like that will make me happy. I guess I
just feel degenerated and need something new to happen in life. I've
totally mellowed out I think. Sometimes I feel like an old man. But I
dont think I'm boring, just bored with everything around me. Not like
im above those around me or have surpassed people, i'm just tired of
chasing after the same things, same people, and everything else. Even
shopping and buying new clothes was boring to me.
I don't know, I just feel like I've been regressing. And I don't like
doing that. oh well...i hate complaining, and im not trying to
complain. just making a statement of where I am at in life and wanted
to kind of sort out what I've been thinking/feeling lately.
so hope everyone is doing something creative and happy in life. i'm
gonna make some artwork this week that wont look cool or be anything
special, but i'm not trying.
good night.
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